Fuck it, the things I live off

Not sure about the title.

Since I got back there have been a few constants in my life:
-animal crackers (a costco size barrel of 'em)
-iced tea (massive costco water bottles with 2 starbucks black iced tea packets floating in them)
-fanfiction (this strange new obsession i've developed, it makes up for the atrocious, Breaking Dawn, esp. Robert/Kristen stuff) found on the marvelous fanfiction.net & livejournal.com
-ace of cakes/food network (when I can't sleep and it's too late to be up the tv boops on and cakes fill my eyes)
-texting (I've been texting a friend for about 5 days straight, it's nice to have someone to talk to)
-fruit (mostly pears and peaches)
-soothing music (ie. Dashboard Conf, Damien Rice, Dandy Warhols, Phantom of the Opera [not exactly soothing])

Anybody else I bit upset about Stephenie Meyer's decision to halt the writing of Midnight Sun? I am royally pissed. Oh, wah wah so people have seen the first 12 chapters big whoop! We all saw the first two parts to Breaking-fucking-Dawn! Which I might add was less than desirable. Wouldn't you want to get the one book that might save you out there? I admit there were parts in Breaking Dawn I loved to death but I can't stand the mere thought of Renesmee. It's not right. If it were me I'd be racing to get the book printed so I could ensure that as many fans as possible would refrain from reading the leaked stuff. No, she's giving us permission to read it but also saying that because of it she might not finish the book?! That's bullshit. I've never known Mrs. Meyer to disappoint her fans intentionally but looks like the rise to fame has given her a supreme feeling of power. So go ahead Mrs. Steph write other books like the Host--which I might add I can't even get past the first chapter it's so dull-- see if we all rush out to buy them.

Sometimes, it feels like my dog was never even here. When we used to get home all the dogs would bark and whine until we let them in to say hi. I don't even bother looking for Mickey, or feeling like I should. I haven't ever even immediately after she died, there almost wasn't a sense of loss. It hasn't felt like something is missing. I don't feel anything about it. Not like I'm depressed, I'm not. It's just I know she was here, I love her still, remember her; but it's okay that she's not here. She'll always be my baby, I never thought it'd be so easy to let her go. I thought I would die.

I'm completely stoked about the Nov. 21 release for Twilight. I love that it got moved up. Haha, and that WARNER BROS. felt threatened by it so they moved Harry Potter back, A LOT. It's a laugh, I still like Harry Potter, but the liking towards it is nothing over the love I have for Twilight-Eclipse & Midnight Sun. It's like comparing gray to red (Twilight being red), the love is so much more vibrant and eye-catching. I would never re-read Harry Potter 10+ times.

Better go,
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